I was so busy taking care of other people and trying to make my family happy the last 6 weeks of 2011 that I forgot to take care of myself. In the past 4 weeks I have had major allergy issues that turned into a sinus infection and now I've got some flu-like virus.
Why do I do this to myself?
Do you think there's something fundamental in the female nature that makes us feel guilty and selfish if we are not nurturing/caring for others? Or is it that I've developed some deep-seated feeling of low self-worth and don't think I deserve to take time for me?
A guy friend pointed out that we don't clean our homes so that other people can come over and see how clean and neat we are; we clean our homes because we deserve to live in a clean environment. I've been so rundown lately the only things in my apartment that I have cleaned regularly are the dishes, laundry, and my bathroom. This is ironic when you realize that I clean house for someone else on a regular basis.
Why do I forget the difference between foolish and wise sacrifices?
My only resolution for this year is to get organized in every aspect of my life. I'm slowly working on this. I have realized that my priorities have become skewed a bit and I have lost my balance. I want my balance back! I used to have a memory like an elephant; it was nearly eidetic. Now I feel like things go in my brain and get lost.
How do you remember that you are worth it?
What do you do to maintain your balance on the high wire of life?
Emily, you know I am much more selfish than you are and I have no problem saying no 100X! It is a hard thing to do when you want to prioritize your life and you have such strong desire to serve. Next time you need to say no, just remember I am backing you up!
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