- Unexpected payout of 24 hours of personal vacation hours.
- 12 hours of uninterrupted sleep.
- A desire to do the dishes and laundry.
- Having a moment of panic when I discovered the payroll deposit in my bank account and not diving for a paper bag to hyperventilate.
- Feeling like the meds are finally kicking in.
- Wanting to go outside the apartment and do something.
- Deciding to go get a massage because my muscles are so tight my jaw aches.
- Laughing on the phone with SIL A about thinking I might have gotten fired when I saw the payroll deposit and being brave enough to call HR to verify that I wasn't fired.
- Feeling optimistic about the future again.
- Choosing to make the blog public again on 1 September.
- Realizing that I will be able to take 2 classes this semester and feeling confident that I can go in and talk to an academic advisor.
- Happy to be alive and not wanting to not be here anymore.
- Having a desire to go to church on Sunday and participate in a weekly FHE group.
- My real friends who have been there through everything and not given up on me.
- A SIL who I can call on the phone and who can tell from my tone of voice or a simple phrase that I'm not okay and understanding that I just need someone to love me.
- My sister's ability to bully me into eating and making me eat while she watches via Skype.
- A feeling of mild excitement over an international Impressionist exhibit coming to the MFAH in December.
- Actually wanting to go to the MFAH again.
- A desire to workout and eat more than pizza.
Thank you all for not openly judging me.
So glad you're beginning to feel better! One day at a time, and pretty soon life will be manageable again. :)
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