I really like that I have folded my butterfly wings and retreated into my own private social cocoon. Unfortunately, you don't meet friends this way. In an effort to discover a happy medium between my cocoon and spreading my gorgeous wings, I helped set up a group on Facebook for those who want to go to events and activities and talk in person rather than on social media. I also volunteered to assist with the Valentine's Day dinner and dance hosted my the Houston Metro SA.
I showed up early to help with last minute decorations and food stuff. Turns out I was the only one who knew how to take various ingredients and mix drinks. That's right, I was the unofficial bartender all night. It's not as glamorous as it sounds. After everyone else had gotten their food and I knew that there was enough drinks out for at least 20 minutes, I grabbed some dinner. I sat down at a table and proceeded to eat all by myself in a crowd of over 200 people. Even when I try to be social I am by myself. People who came in late and saw me obviously eating alone didn't even attempt to sit down and eat with me.
(LeSigh)
Trying not to take it too personally but the fact that for the past 17 years I've been told that I'm very off-putting even before I open my mouth doesn't make me feel super-enthused about attending another activity. I had the most fun conversing with the other people who were helping with the food. Our conversations didn't leave the kitchen and we discussed the fun of jet lag, new advances in cardio medicine, and the difference between modern medicine in Switzerland and Paris. I am excited about going to some upcoming activities in the area even if I'm the only person I know there. Oh, well. Still searching for that happy medium.
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